Found Myself As I Search for You

I have been trying soo hard to make you mine,
make you like me,love me,want me.. that i just forgot to be myself and the reason why i started doing so.
I was blinded by what i saw or what i wanted to see and by what everyone says one wants..
It was a foolishness because i thought it was necessary to play by society's rule..

Now i don't know who am i in front of you,

is this me or the image of me which you wanted to see. 
I don't remember myself or the me which you liked or the me which liked you..

I guess i was only foolish and impulsive,scared and lonely,sad and alone..


It was not me which you liked,it was that me which you liked that liked you..
It was that me who was wandering with an open heart and soul only with some need for acceptance and approval.
You don't love me,you just love this idea of me which we created,which i thought you wanted..
This idea was a mold that we created..i was just a clay ready to shape myself ,trying to fit into it perfectly well.

We both just love this image of us that we created to satisfy ourselves..only as a beggar pretends to be blind to satisfy his reason for what he does and to make us satisfy that we are doing a good deed,just to satisfy the effort of the movement that we do.

Now am left with no reasons ,so i guess i should not try to build that image i should not try to make you mine..

Searching for you,trying for you,
I have answered many of my own questions..
Now i should search for me,the real me.
Must go out on a walk and must take a look around and find myself that satisfies me and not anyone else..

I found and made myself what i wanted to be..
and yes this is REAL ME..
god for someone,a friend for someone,a crush for someone,a love for someone,
a snob for someone,a loser for someone,a sister to someone,a daughter to my parents..

If you like this real me,then i guess i dnt mind trying again to make you mine,
as we search for the real you,the real me and the real us.